Afraid to sleep

I'm stuck

I scream and no one hears

I cry and I'm alone

Even though I'm at home

It doesn't feel like me at all.


It's just another night here

Forced to leave the lights on

Can someone answer my prayers?

Maybe they can,

but they won't.


Looking back at my mistakes,

were they mistakes at all?

Those memories are now far away

the times when I felt free

yelling at some people in the street.


There's not much I can do

I guess I have to get used to it

at not being able to receive an answer

Laying naked on the floor

Trying to scream although I can't move

I can't even move. 


The winter is here

the tears are back

I won't survive

I won't